At times, i don't really quite comprehend my own feelings too.

I dunno what i want, i dunno what i expect.

All i know is to feel the pain everytime.

Ask me to explain, i'm speechless because i don't even know what i want.


It seems that whenever you've classmates or friends around,

you dun give a damn about me,

you took a longer time to text me, you took a longer time to reply me,

you called me and talked only for a shortwhile.

Unlike when you're all alone. & what i meant, was after school, not during.

During class, of course i'll understand.

Don't bother askin me what happened because i wouldnt know. I just hope you know what you're doing & understand why 'm i behaving that way.
I don't want all your fake entertaining actions.

You may not 've thought that way, but i'm sure it is.

You may feel that everything you did seems to be wrong or not to my expectation, but in fact, i'm not expecting anything from you, just abit of your attention.
Whatever you think, it isnt exactly that way you know.
All i want is from the real heart of yours.

I've no idea who causes it; you? poly? people around you?
I guess i can only blame myself for ________.

Whatever it is, so numb; prepared for the worst.
Perhaps like what my dad said, make use of me for the 3 yrs in school to help & ditch me aside upon graduation.

Shut the fuck up everyone, i don't need your comforts nor concern.

At times, i don't really quite comprehend my own feelings too.

I dunno what i want, i dunno what i expect.

All i know is to feel the pain everytime.

Ask me to explain, i'm speechless because i don't even know what i want.


It seems that whenever you've classmates or friends around,

you dun give a damn about me,

you took a longer time to text me, you took a longer time to reply me,

you called me and talked only for a shortwhile.

Unlike when you're all alone. & what i meant, was after school, not during.

During class, of course i'll understand.

Don't bother askin me what happened because i wouldnt know. I just hope you know what you're doing & understand why 'm i behaving that way.
I don't want all your fake entertaining actions.

You may not 've thought that way, but i'm sure it is.

You may feel that everything you did seems to be wrong or not to my expectation, but in fact, i'm not expecting anything from you, just abit of your attention.
Whatever you think, it isnt exactly that way you know.
All i want is from the real heart of yours.

I've no idea who causes it; you? poly? people around you?
I guess i can only blame myself for ________.

Whatever it is, so numb; prepared for the worst.
Perhaps like what my dad said, make use of me for the 3 yrs in school to help & ditch me aside upon graduation.

Shut the fuck up everyone, i don't need your comforts nor concern.